This is it

Kata orang kesempatan itu ga akan datang untuk kedua kalinya

Begitu ada kesempatan, kenapa ga??

dan maaf untuk semua pihak..

meskipun saya berpikir bwt apa mengucap maaf??

this is the final decision!!!

I quit, I believe in my father and Father.... back to STUDY....

this is for my betterment not for money and not for the shake of the company where I work now!!!

This is for my ambition and hopefully my ambition can bless others....

My ambition can be the weapon for the next "service"

Bless me Lord

Heart vs Money in a battlefield called JOB

awalanya sih apapun pekerjaannya I will do it, I want money!!

dan

sekarang saya rasa hati dan rasa ini lebih penting......

do what I wanna do....

do what I like to do....

do what my heart tells to do...

do what makes me happy....

then,

how about money....

money cannot buy my happiness and satisfaction

I don't want to torturing my self because of money.....

my pray is that....

God shows me the way

God blesses my decision

God keeps His promises

God gives what I need not what I want

I trust God...

Sneakers

Memories will remain the same but future depends on your efforts in the present.

Graduation means leaving college life.
I symbolize this by making my own term which is "taking off the sneaker"

Why sneakers?

Sneakers symbolize casuality

For me, college is a place where I can wear my casual outfit everyday (especially in my faculty ^__^V I had ever gone to campus wearing t-shirt, short, and sandal) except on the certain days where I have to be in my formal outfit.

Being casual refers to the freedom of the youth where we can express our thought, feel, creativity, even idealism. But this is not teenage phase where somebody is looking for his or her self, this a process to be a mature person......... ^_____^V

College life is like a luxurious time in my life where I can state my high idealism without (sometimes but almost always) considering the fact and the reality. This is the time when I was very ambitious, perfectionist, and stubborn to defend mine.

Where we highly valued of friendship above anything.

Where something unusual for my mom is regarded as a common thing for me.

This is the time when going to college for the morning class without taking a bath is OKAY.

This is the time when going to sleep in the dawn is NORMAL

This is the time when letting my bedroom looks like a storage room is FINE

This is the time when T-SHIRT, SHORT, and SNEAKERS are the best partner ever!!!

But Now.... that's only memories,,
a beautiful memories....
but MEMORIES will remain the same and FUTURE is waiting to be captured by what I am doing in the present

Leaving college life,,,, entering a new world, world of work ....
Sometimes memories make me frustrated with what I am facing recently in my new world...
But sometimes I think why do I always complaining and comparing??

What I have to do now is just FACING IT NO MATTER HOW HARD MY NEW WORLD IS

because what I have done now will determine what I will achieve in the future...
so MY MEMORIES IN COLLEGE will be the spirit for my effort now
and
I HAVE TO MAKE A NEW BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES IN THIS NEW PHASE OF LIFE

This is not an instant noodle

Boil the water
Tear the package
Take out the noodle out
Put it in the boiled water
Add the seasonings
Stir it..
After 3 to 5 minutes...
Voila, an instant noodle ala chef hurry!!!

To be honest in my struggling period of going out from a comfort zone, I am thinking of the process of being accustomed with un-comfortzone is not a quick and easy process to be passed.
Cry
Tears
Tears
Tears
and
Tears again
Making sure of my self that everything gonna be alright.
Stand on my own
Then feeling lonely
Tears
Cry
Tears
Cry again

But I believe that those buckets of tears will be a strong foundation in forming me as a strong person
Just like the preach this evening.... that the metamorphose process of a cocoon become a butterfly cannot be forced by somebody else. Because if it is forced by somebody else then the butterfly won't be able to fly...

Let this hard tough tiring and frustrating process happens in my life naturally so that I can be a strong woman like my Mom.

Mom. I am always missing you all the time....
God I surrender my life into Your palm.
Bless my beloved my mom, dad, brother, grandma, and best friends.

God's Plans must be GOOD GOOD really GOOD

I believe that God has created the story complete with the beautiful endings.. and also with many and various kind of the up and down scenes...

When God let something, many things, certain things, changes, and anything happen in my life, there must be GOOD GOOD reasons behind that.

I believe that there will be GOOD GOOD reasons that God sending me here...

Thus, I have to be grateful with these and will be those up and down scenes...
Showing my gratefulness by working hard, seriously, and fully hearted.

But, now and then and up to the end of my life I will always beg for His guidance, patience, and strength, and love.

Because she is my Mom

she knows every single thing about me...
this is the very first time that I am going to live separately from her...
the first two days was really though...
I do really need her...
I do really want her beside me...

She is the best mom ever

New

New
New year
New world
New environment (I am going to have)
New life
New friend (I am going to have some)
New target
New New New New New New
and everything is going to be new....
but not my family

That's why I feel a bit hard to enter that new world and so on and so forth